I don’t know, I think I’ve presented some legitimate challenges to the unanimously accepted and rehearsed world-view. I don’t base anything on theory: descriptions I give may sound theoretical because things being described operate mechanically and repetitively. One can leave a comment and challenge me directly on anything specific, but they don’t do that, and have never left anything other than spam comments on any of my blogs. And these types of things are certainly not limited to the internet. In a world of such great plurality, it’s miraculous that everything concerning me can be so unanimously agreed on or at least acted on with such uniformity.

The machine is obviously sophisticated and things don’t have to be so black and white, but there are the innumerable times when things do come together in very black and white, because there are tells. One can’t really hope to persuade the defensive bodies of this though. They don’t really seem to notice what’s there, even when partaking in it themselves, and there are certain things you can’t really get them to not overlook, like those not always glorious details that are there to give away what it is.

Arguments do little against the universal determination to overlook certain things. Everything is set in place to overlook and nullify these things, and struggling against that is called deceptiveness.

and in general, I would like to note that I don't always say everything that I think or that I see. I select my words, and then I say the words that I select. this seems to be understood when anyone else does it.

Emoticons: They’ll use every available method of human appeal or pressure, all the while never breaching certain very simple rules but just trying to distract you from the fact that they cannot breach these simple rules. While taken by their charms, they work to set you up in all kinds of ways, and at the end you are reminded that those bits of thoughts you had sacrificed to accommodate them, should never have been sacrificed. At times it may seem like a matter of subtleties between ‘games people play’, and games that emoticons play, although if you don’t exercise relevant caution they can very quickly thrive to absurd and paralyzing extents.

The inability to question authority of every sort and to question anything at all that’s beyond the small realm of established discourse is striking. There are always legions of all sorts that will mark you, at which point the ability to reason is reduced to ineffectiveness. There are all kinds of herds, but the anti-herd herds are always striking for being so much more assured and determined in being a herd.

And for others that stand distinct in my mind for whatever reason, it’s so much the usual stuff I put up with, although perhaps more intelligent and assured, and when I see them I see parts of what they’re supposed to be, but mostly I see a hole, and all they do is go after the same things that are usually gone after in relation to me, only with more assurance. It has never been against the rules for them to be intelligent and distinct from one another in some ways, and it happens quite often.

More of a long-term observation: It’s set up in advance that as soon as I manage to flee from one trap, and am understandably quite angry about some shit, I automatically step into a ready-made other. Then there is also the part where revenge has to be taken on me for all kinds of shit for which I should be taking revenge. And they are there to stick a human face on top of it.

Things I experience constantly: My thoughts and private activities are policed by corresponding sensory abuses. Other things: when I write something privately with the intention of publishing, I then encounter all kinds of emails and spam making direct references to things that I wrote privately, as well as other things that had occurred privately very recently. Something else: I have censored some spam comments on my blog at shahargold.com/writings, and so, in what was made to appear to be a retribution, this blog had earlier disappeared and become inaccessible, to see how I would respond, and I saw this in advance and so wasn’t quick to respond. I don’t think they’re supposed to do that though, but it will never be acknowledged as having happened for those purposes.