if you don't constantly set up blocks against the pieces of shit in your thoughts, there is no limit to how intimitely they will permit themselves to involve themselves in your life, and when they have become extremely intimitely involved in your life, they will of course turn into assholes again and give you much reason to wish that they just weren't there. they have been policing your every word and every thought and every breath in great masses for so many years, that no other arrangement in your life is even conceivable than, when having decided to maximize solitude to whatever degree possible, to devote every moment of your life to the pieces of shit and make your every thought publicly available (which it is whether you want it to be or not). and although a part of you was hoping that perhaps someone will see the way in which you are living, there are only the pieces of shit, who even treat this as a mundane matter, and even constantly demand more. whenever they decide to alter the 'social context' in any way, or pick a day to unitarily increase harassment everywhere you go and work as a team to make you think you have committed some great sin or have revealed (to these pieces of shit) some great flaw in your character, the real social context remains the same: you are being targeted by every last one of them, are always in the spotlight, and will be attacked by swarms whenever you don't pass their 'tests', whenever you lose your confidence, or whenever they just decide to for no good reason. these 'tests' of theirs are conveniently never without ulterior motives, of course, and while testing some detail of your character or the order of the emotions you feel or thoughts you think, and whether these will be morally acceptable to the great masses that do nothing for you but are always at your throat, the real aim of the tests is to divert your attention away from the violations they are committing against you in great masses and to keep you from fighting for your rights, which they will never tire of violating anyways, and so there is no point in anything as long as these pieces of shit are around.