and despite all the alternate explanations they are always ready to provide, all they ever really do is prove me right. each and every one of them is an agent of the thought-police, each and every one of them is there to outcast me and to police my life, and each and every one of them uses mob-tactics against me to enforce the ideology, and that's all they are really there to do.
in fact, they can just police my life and outcast me, and then rely on me to make excuses for them. and as when talking with them they'll just outright make all kinds of morbidly false accusations, I can't trust the (not very) smiley-faces who provide no explanations when mistreating me to be 'telling the truth in some way'.