anything of any meaningfulness has long been taken away and forbidden in my life, and so the agents will constantly use communal shame tactics in regard to my most basic relationships, while of course spying on my every move. I am expected to ignore the prison-setup of this 'society' though in order to accept the contexts of these judgments. they will provoke me in many ways, and then switch contexts to use guilt tactics against me. meanwhile, everyone everywhere acts like they know who I am, and they all involve themselves in my life, which sucks the life right out of everything.